They needed someone to hate. Someone to fight against to see the truth. People learn through trust and through fear. They had trust - they had Shuichi, they had another boy - Kaito - who took such pride in being a hero...
I was the fear. I was the odd man out. The real mastermind wasn't going to present themselves. So they had me.
...
And I died for it. One of the girls eventually had enough. She killed me because she suspected me. And that was that.
[He shrugs softly.]
By that point, we'd gone from 16 to... [Shuichi, Kokichi, Kaito, Maki, Tsumugi, Kiibo, Himiko..] ...7, anyway. It was pretty grim no matter what.
[then, off-handedly]
Rantaro was the first to die, by the way. The first victim. So he doesn't know any of this.
But all that is why I reacted the way that I did with Sans. I'm used to being underhanded because no one else will be to get to the truth. I'm used to people seeing my actions as disgusting and prodding people I can't fully trust and that don't trust me. If there's anyone who knows how to get to the truth that way...it's me. I'm not proud of it. But that's how things are.
( 'they needed someone to hate'- she can... sort of see the logic there. but part of her also wants to slap him silly. another part wants to cry for him, loud and long-lasting.
all he did was draw attention away from their traitor and he died for it. )
[He wouldn't blame her for any of those reactions. Hell, he feels like that towards himself sometimes - the idiot who got himself killed because he couldn't tell the truth: I'm not the villain. And who would've believed him at that point? Certainly not Maki. She'd made up her mind.
So he had a sad story. He put the sandwich on the table in front of Aoi, and put one in front of his own seat as he took a seat.]
Anyways! That's also why this situation is great! I've got a second chance! A new lease here. So do you!
( aoi stares at the table, past anything- she barely notices when the food is placed. )
I was on a train, when I woke up in the church. The last train from the edge of the Far Shore to the heart of it. Had the ride lasted, I'd have lost my humanity.
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[so...yes.]
They needed someone to hate. Someone to fight against to see the truth. People learn through trust and through fear. They had trust - they had Shuichi, they had another boy - Kaito - who took such pride in being a hero...
I was the fear. I was the odd man out. The real mastermind wasn't going to present themselves. So they had me.
...
And I died for it. One of the girls eventually had enough. She killed me because she suspected me. And that was that.
[He shrugs softly.]
By that point, we'd gone from 16 to... [Shuichi, Kokichi, Kaito, Maki, Tsumugi, Kiibo, Himiko..] ...7, anyway. It was pretty grim no matter what.
[then, off-handedly]
Rantaro was the first to die, by the way. The first victim. So he doesn't know any of this.
But all that is why I reacted the way that I did with Sans. I'm used to being underhanded because no one else will be to get to the truth. I'm used to people seeing my actions as disgusting and prodding people I can't fully trust and that don't trust me. If there's anyone who knows how to get to the truth that way...it's me. I'm not proud of it. But that's how things are.
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all he did was draw attention away from their traitor and he died for it. )
... I see.
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So he had a sad story. He put the sandwich on the table in front of Aoi, and put one in front of his own seat as he took a seat.]
Anyways! That's also why this situation is great! I've got a second chance! A new lease here. So do you!
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I was on a train, when I woke up in the church. The last train from the edge of the Far Shore to the heart of it. Had the ride lasted, I'd have lost my humanity.